A little bit about my past: I grew up believing I was not good enough. I was told that I should be different; that God made a mistake when He made me; that I was too passionate and wouldn't be good enough. I loved God and heard and felt Him lead me, but when I would hear these things about myself I would tell Him I hated Him for making me this way. My freshman year of high school, my parents separated and I was told it was my fault. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but knowing that didn't soothe my pain. It actually made me feel more like a screw up. One day in June or July, I was planning on committing suicide. I thought I was a mistake and that I had no real purpose on the earth. As I was planning how I would do this, I found my Bible and saw a card in there for Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.
At that moment I told God that if He was serious about having a future for me, He needed to show me. And He did, in powerful ways. So on that night, God raised my life from the dead and gave me a joy and a peace that empowers me to live for Him.
This past week I went to CIY Move in Macomb, Illinois. I chose to use my gifts, talents, and abilities to further God's Kingdom, which to me means raising more lives from the dead. This makes me a Kingdom Worker. What God has called me to do is to raise $3000 for a missionary supported by my church, New Horizon. That is a big number to me, and a tiny (but very important) number to God. My anthem for this mission is "Always" by Kristian Stanfill. I will not fear, His promise is true My God will come through always, always. I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
And the crazy thing is, He has already started coming through. Today, this song was playing after church, and as I was singing it, two people came and donated money. I still have a long ways to go, but God has shown me that He will not stand me up on this mission.
Now that you know a little bit about what is going on, I hope you will follow and support me with your prayers as I embark on this great journey of doing God's Will to show the world how crazy wonderful His love is.
