Red Light, Green Light

It feels like this is all moving very slowly. I have gone to many meetings, and we think what mission I'm supporting has been decided, but it hasn't officially and so we're still in the process of waiting. It is a lot like waiting at a red light. 

God hasn't told me to shut off my car or turn around. He's just making me wait. Maybe it's to teach me patience, or maybe it's to best suit the needs of others for what I'm going to be doing, but I can't know that for sure. What's so difficult about it is that I know that the light WILL turn green, I am just totally baffled as to when. So I try to be prepared. I try to be ready. Everything in me wants to ease off the brakes and hope that the light will turn green before I get to the middle of the intersection. I just want to feel like I'm making progress, even if it could actually negatively impact what I'm doing. I do not want to get ahead of God, because He is never late. At the same time, all of my pride wants to see progress.

That's not to say there hasn't been progress. There have been significant steps forward. However, these, at least for the moment, are beneath the surface. It's churning the water. It's starting the engines. It's throwing the coal into the fire. It's changing everything, yet without being seen. But soon the wind and waves will come and start moving the boat. The car will start moving forward. The steam will rise and start moving the train forward. I don't know if this will take off fast or slow. But I know that it will pick up speed as it goes and praise God that He is in control because I won't be able to once it gets going. This is a God-sized mission, and it can't be done right by anyone except Our God. 

Hopefully, it won't be long until the light turns green and we start going. I will let everybody know when I know for sure. But God's got it and so it's just a waiting game. And as long as I'm trusting in Him, I know that I will arrive right on time.